Proverbs 4:23 tells us “above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it” (New International Version). When it comes to matters of the heart, I have found this statement to be painfully true. In the early years of my journey, one would say that I wore my heart on my sleeve, always eager to build meaningful relationships with those around me. Unfortunately, I was not skilled in guarding my heart and spent a big part of my life with a very hardened heart, which is another warning from God (Hebrews 3:8).
As I look at the small piece of world around me, I often see that I am not the only one that has missed the understanding of how the heart affects us. Some of us have become numb to the emotions, vulnerabilities and weaknesses that are a part of our inner self. For me, I have allowed the hurts, disappointments and fears I’ve acquired throughout my journey to build up and as a result, I’ve created a fortress around myself so solid it sometimes keeps me from experiencing emotions at all. While this is a great way to become strong, I don’t believe it’s not how life was intended to live.
Realizing how the condition of one’s heart affects me mentally, physically and spiritually, has set me on a journey to demolition this fortress and learn to experience emotions, fears and disappointments as they were meant to be… lessons.
I’m quite certain there is a reason God made these feelings a part of our genetic makeup and hopefully he has given instruction on how to use and manage them. That is where I will begin this journey… learning and understanding forgiveness and unconditional love as Christ demonstrated. I hope you walk a little with me along this path to freedom from a hardened heart.